11.15.2015

Resentment

Hii 🙈

Sometimes i wonder why i have always been so lonely and then i finally got the answer.
*music plays*
I resent people.
I can be polite though but i avoid negativity you know.
I resent manipulative/over-reacting/ignorant/careless/boastful people. Oh and i hate critics, i hate liars, i hate copycats, i hate hypocrites, i hate ms or mr I-know-more-than-you, i hate backstabbers, i hate ms or mr I-am-the-best-here, i hate panicky people, i hate people who keep sayin sorry, i hate people who only read my text when i expect a reply, i hate ppl who act like they know me, i hate people who take advantage of me, i hate people who judge, i hate attention-seekers, i hate people who calculate wayyyy too much, and maybe another 100 kinds of people.
Most of the time, depends on how pissed I am with their existence, I let them blend in my social life but when i get uncomfortable, i back away. I am just showing my courtesy. 

In conclusion, it's very hard for me to please myself. Not to mention, I try to be nice to people i meet but i can't make em stay bcs i don't feel like they deserve to get their time wasted when i clearly know how i feel. No wonder.

But when i love, i love harder than a bird pecking on a tree
My life is a roller-coaster with easy lanes and peaks and slopes .

Umm, sorry not sorry. 😹

11.14.2015

Don't sweat it. It's just a kiss (or two kisses, or maybe three).

11.04.2015

Friendly reminder!

We don't live the life of Romeo and Juliet. We rarely hear about love at first sight anymore. Before you fall in love, all you see are attractiveness and similarity. And you might misinterpret it as butterflies in your stomach. You try so hard to get his attention, to please him and you missed all the good stuff while he is at the backdoor, flirting with another girl.
But who are you to judge? He calls you sometimes,he snapchats you, he makes you laugh, he texts you, stop here. He is JUST BEING NICE. 
Keep that in mind before you panic bcs he doesn't reply your text , he added your female friends, he followed their instagram, he blablabla. 
Speaking from experience, don't fall (at all). Don't fall before you are sure about how much he is into you.
Boys will be boys bcs they produce testosterones (not sure bout how I relate this, but try to look at males with this point of view and you'll realize how unsteady they are). Play it cool. Really. 
Attractiveness and similarity are two important qualities but listen to yourself, are you being ridiculous? Obsessively ridiculous? 
He's not yours, he gets to flirt. You are not his, you get to relax and go live your life!

He is

But he is not yours as you are not his
And there is nothing in between
For betweens are gray
And gray is gray
Not black nor white
Not yours nor mine

-J