2.13.2013

Duh. The lyric is touching

Disguise
Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside
You will never measure up, to those people you
Must be strong, can't show them that you're weak
Have you ever told someone something
That's far from the truth
Let them know that you're okay
Just to make them stop
All the wondering, and questions they may have

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Have you ever seen your face,
In a mirror there's a smile
But inside you're just a mess,
You feel far from good
Need to hide, 'cos they'd never understand
Have you ever had this wish, of being
Somewhere else
To let go of your disguise, all your worries too
And from that moment, then you see things clear

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time, to figure things out
Not telling lies, I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know what's yet to come

Are you waiting for that day when your pain will disappear?
When you know that it's not true what they say about you?
Couldn't care less 'bout the things surrounding you
Ignoring all the voices from my wall

I'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time
To figure things out
Not telling lies
I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know
What's yet to comeI'm okay, I really am now
Just needed some time
To figure things out
Not telling lies
I'll be honest with you
Still we don't know
What's yet to come
Still we don't know
What's yet to come

2.12.2013

#nowplaying

Just a feeling
Maroon 5


I watched you cry
Bathed in sunlight
By the bathroom door
You said you wished you did not love me anymore

You left your flowers in the backseat of my car
The things we said and did have left permanent scars
Obsessed depressed at the same time
I can't even walk in a straight line
I've been lying in the dark no sunshine
No sunshine
No sunshine

She cries
This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there
It's just a feeling
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have, oh yeah

Cause I can't believe that it's over

You've hit your low
You've lost control and you want me back
You may not believe me but I gave you all I had
Undress confess that you're still mine
Roll around in a bed full of tears
I'm still lying in the dark no sunshine
No sunshine
No sunshine

She cries
This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there

It's just a feeling
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have

No I can't believe that it's over now
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have

So much to say
It's not the way she does her hair
It's the way she seems to stare right through my eyes
And in my darkest day when she refused to run away
From love she tried so hard to save

It's just a feeling
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have

It's just a feeling
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling
Just a feeling that I have

I can't believe that it's over
I can't believe that it's over
Now I can't believe that's it's over, yeah

2.11.2013

Just a feeling

Die diery,

He almost unchain that 2-month-old conversation. So far we never misses a day without talking. And he finally texted at 11.58 last night but I've decided to walk away. Not bcs of that childish reason,but I simply have to stop hurting myself. However,I failed to ignore him again today now I feel sorry for myself being so gullible.

I was a lil teary last Thurs. Crying does make one feel weak but it also relieves in some ways.
No,no. I was just mad at myself,I didn't know how to end things without regrets. He always shows up  whenever I try to walk away.
I'm..tired being an option,tired acting cool like I don't care when I actually do.


xx,
@Julquerade

2.04.2013

Lazy Monday

Die Diery,

It has been a good week with the ladies and member Gab is back in town! Hurrah,gonna have a great bbq on Wed night.
Btw today's so tedious hmmm :(

2.02.2013

Ladies

Die diery,

I'm just lucky to have my girls by my side now.
Have been spending a week hanging around with the ladies,from late night sharing and confession,movie time,lazying around and tonight we had great chit chat at a wine house--not for a drink. Good people,good food,good time..who the hell has time for problems?
Well,I'm glad for not being alone when I truly need somebody to talk to..thanks girls :*
But it's this late and I can't sleep due to cappuccino that I sipped.
And my mind keeps on wandering...still can't believe what has happened..
All the facts that I've known made me feel like a fool. Upset and unwilling to give it up but I have to. It was a logic versus feeling battle.
I secretly want a crush so I would have some distractions lol

xx,
@Julquerade