I wish I could run,dance,ice skate,jump,stroll..

Die Diery,

Isn't this suppose to be a place to write about what I'm feeling?
Why couldn't do it?
I only needed a quarter to type what I really feel but I chose to save it instead.
Honestly,it's because it sounds pity. And tough woman doesn't pity herself right?
I'm great in enduring pain..I could even endure till pale but..that's not right.
That's not..



Thank you,teachers...

For where I am today,I thank God.
For who I am today,I thank my parents
For what I've learnt 'till today,I thank teachers.

The first Teacher's Day without school,uniform,classmates..and taking pictures and having fun and ...so much to be remembered ..at least for the past 3 years.
I miss..them...


Mom & SK's birthday

ugly bruise :(


last year's


 Time flies,so true..


#nowplaying Leaving on a Jet plane - John Denver

Today..it was raining and I was listening to sad songs then I fell asleep.
As I woke up, my mood dropped.  The brain recorded the songs, perhaps.
Finally, I revived after a few sweet strawberry gummy candies. Endorphin. 

Question of the day:
Do you feel lonely sometimes?
I do.
Sometimes I even feel like I’m not so me.
This is strange.
Die Diery,

I wish I could read minds or foretell so that I would know what and who to keep away from.
I'm not being defensive because I'm defensive..but I'm just too...yes,defensive.
What's the word again? Can't really think of one.

They said Cancers are just too absorbed and faithful that they can barely move a step after a disastrous relationship or...so-called complicated feeling.
Well,I'm not so sure but I guess that goes to everyone who truly keeps feeling for somebody.
When you naturally fell,the worst feeling in the world would be losing somebody you really care for.
Everybody you care for.

I watched a Korean drama last night,it's scandalous and sad..till a point when the couple divorced. I don't get it why would they do that while they were still so in love with each other..
I got swollen eyes for crying all night watching it hahaha,I can never be an offhand person.

What is it like to halt such feeling? It must be bitter especially when the onerous passion kicks you upside down,or just down.
Perhaps. I've got no idea about this.

To God I pray,let everybody finds their happiness soon and no more broken hearts.


To be happy is simple

Die Diery,
Spent my afternoon time with Buddy today!
Yeay,it has been so long since the last time I had time just lazying and watching the sky as the clouds move.
Ehem. I like my routines back at school exams,let go of the previous hectic hours
and just enjoy the show together with Buddy :)
It was so peaceful.
Btw I have just finished my very first mid exam. 
I did my best so..God bless!
I just realized that I'm so easy to please loll.
Actually the exams today were gruesome.
What I studied appeared like only half from all the matters,but..
the quality time with Buddy cheered me up :))
It's great to feel happy,it's great to feel satisfied.

The sky was super nice! Look at the pictures I took. Love them!

Are you sleeping,are you sleeping Buddy boy?




The sun is filling up the room
And I can hear you dreaming
Do you feel the way I do right now?
I wish we would just give up
Cause the best part is falling
Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don't stand so close to me
I'm having trouble breathing
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now
I give you everything I am
All my broken heart beats
Until I know you understand

And I will make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And I keep waiting
For you to take me
You keep waiting
To save what we have

So I'll make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance
Say "I love you" when you're not listening
How long til we call this love, love, love?

Christina Perri



Healthy advice

Dear girls,
It's just sad not knowing if that somebody you thought you know has mask on.
You thought he was different but he wasn't.
You thought you wouldn't fall then you fell.
You thought he gave cues but he actually didn't.
Nothing is more insulting than that,so far.

If that inevitably ever happened in your life,then you should just move on. Don't wait till you feel defeated. You're much more worthy than you thought you were.
Tell yourself that once he's out,he's out..
No matter what the reason was,whether he left you or you sent him out from your life for good because he made you wait for too long,it's his fault for not keeping up.
You need not to find excuses to wait on nor pass free chances.
It's cold and mean but that's what saves your heart from breaking.
Your real man is out there,why stuck here?
Be strong,girls.
Good luck.

NB:  The truth is,I was not that strong too...



I'm studying right now yet my mind keeps on wandering around thinking about this and that and the universe.
What do most girls want in their life?
Every girl is a princess. There was a little girl who had always wanted to be one,seriously.
Tracing back to the adolescent time,I finally realize that this girl grows up too.
She might not a princess wannabee anymore,instead of that she just wants to be special in somebody's eyes.
Sometimes she even wonders if she would ever be somebody's strength or if she'd ever be the reason of those smiles.
She wants to be sunshine.
No matter what she wants to be,that little princess in her heart never sleeps.
Maybe she's too naive but that's just what happen when a girl thinks too far.